Gratitude

I used to hated my life. Always comparing my life with others. I know that people think that my life is lame and boring. Well, i already used to it. There are times when i feel like i wanna have the life like my friends life. But who knows, if they secretly wish that they have my life? 

I always tweeted about my life. Some people tweeted about how fantastic their life is. They tweeted something like, who are the amazing people they met, how cool the party that they attended and so on. But for me, actually my life is simple. I got excited over small things. Because why? Because i appreciate all this small things because although it is small, it makes me happy. It did.

What is not to be happy when you can go out and dine in with your family and have a good time. All of your family members in one table, enjoying great foods together. Millions of people out there are suffering and too bad some of the kids have to survive without their parents. And here i am, i still have my parents, my family and this are the little things that makes me smile.

Same goes to spending time with my boyfriend and my friends. Although the places that we go to hang out is an ordinary place, although all the things that we did together is too common, it never fails to make me happy. These are the things that i will miss when i get old. Why not enjoy it while it last? In this life, we can't have everything. We should never compare our life with someone else. Some parts of our story has determined by god and we have to go with it. What did you got when you started questioning  about all kinds of things and forcing yourself to understand why your life is not like the others. Comparing your life, yourself with others is never a good thing. 

I do have a breakdown once in a while. But when i tried to think of all the things that i should be thankful for, it somehow can makes me feel better. It healed me. As i get older, i realized that i never want a life like a woman living in a luxurious mansion, a fortune in my bank. No i never want that. I wanna be with the person i love, great family and friends, secure job and a happy life. Money is not everything. Believe me when i say that there are some people who have millions but they still cry themselves to sleep. Why is that? Because money cant buy you happiness. It is all in your mind and your heart. It amazes me when i saw that some people can enjoy their life although they always have money problem. 

The key to have that kind of life is to be thankful with what you got, even the smallest things. If you always wanna beat others in terms of job, money, you will never be satisfied. Count your blessing. You will be surprise how big it is when you combine all this small things in life. That will be the time you will realize that your life is not that bad. Someone out there are not that lucky like us. So bow down, pray to god and be thankful about all this little things in life. As little as it is, it is big for someone who knows how to be grateful. Gratitude can change your life. 

This is one of my favourite songs by Avril Lavigne. 

"Innocence"

Waking up I see that everything is OK
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliance
Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by