My future baby girl

It is still a long journey for me to reach there. In fact, i still don't know if i will get one from god. But i really hope that i will get a baby girl one day. Lately, i just love little kids. Especially girl. I'm not sure what is going on with me. Maybe i am ready to be a mother? I'm not so sure about that. It's even weird for me to blog about this. Although she's not here yet, not even in my tummy, but i'm so excited to have one. I even named her. I don't wanna jinx it so for now i will just call her my baby R. Yep, that is my future baby girl. She will be so lucky to have me as her mother. Here's a reason why.

I know what it is like to be a girl. I know what will make a girl upset and what they really want in life. What they expect this life to be. I totally understand that. I will love her with all my heart and i will do whatever it takes to make her happy. There are certain things that happened to me before that i don't want my baby R to face it too. I mean, what kind of mother that will let her daughter face the difficulties that she used to experienced right?

Baby R will have me as a mother and also as a friend. I will be there to pick her up when she fall, i will be with her through thick and thin. I will lend my shoulder when she need to cry out her heart. I will lend my hands to help her to get up and be a fighter. I won't let people look down to her. I will be her biggest fan.

Early in the morning, i will prepare a nice breakfast for her. I will comb her hair and tie her hair a high ponytail. I will give a big hug and say that i love her. I want her to know that i love her. I will save up my money so that she can have a piano lesson, art class, singing, ballet class, just name it. I will try my very best to fulfill it for her. At night, i will tuck her to bed and we can have a small talk before she fall asleep.

When she join any competition, i will give her full support and i will cheer for her. Even if she lose, i don't want her to feel bad. I want her to know that how proud i am to have her. Whenever she feel insecure, i will tell her that she is beautiful. She's beautiful for being a daughter for me. I will make her feel good about herself. No one will make fun of her, and even if there's someone who do that, i will let her know that, she will always have me.

My baby R can talk to me about anything. We will have an open and honest relationship together. We can talk, laugh, cry and shopping together. I will join her watch some kids movies in the cinema so that she will feel close to me. I wanna be a mother that she can look up to as a role model. On weekends, we will watch cartoon together. I will watch whatever cartoon she like and of course i want her to watch my favorite cartoon too! Tom n Jerry and Mickey Mouse! I want her to have my thick eyebrow. Of course she will 'inherit' that!

Baby R, mama want you so bad. Someday, i will hold you in my arm and we're gonna have so much fun together. Good night. Wherever you are.