Goodbye 2011. Thank you.

2011 is a year that i will never forget. It has taught me a lot about myself. I learnt a lot from all the mistakes that i have done all this while. I still remember on December 2010 when i failed my arabic paper in UIA, i swear i feel like i don't wanna live any more. All my plans are ruined because i need 4 more marks to pass that paper. So i said to myself that 2011 will be on hell of a year. Well, it is! In a good way! Lots of things happened this year and it wont happen if i didn't fail that paper. I met lots of new people especially when i first started my job. It was a fun experience. And now, i am currently master student in UiTM and of course i got more friends! How can i be so lucky that i can do both in one year?

I don't wanna think of the mistakes that i have done as a mistake. I'd rather see it as a stepping stone for me to be a better person and also as a lesson. For once, i have never been so comfortable accepting my reality. This is what i wanna feel for years! I know who i am and i know who matters in my life. Those who love me sincerely, thank you.

This year, i underestimated myself a lot. I was so hard on my self and it is a year that i am struggling. But people said, there are times that you need to cry your heart out so that you can bounce back. Well, i wanna bounce back really high this time. I am so done stressing about something that i cant change or control. I do have strong faith in my future and with people. For now, i just go with the flow. I will try not to be so serious because i know the worse thing that will happen to me if i act that way, i will fall again.

Thanks for those who treat me nicely and make me happy. Sometimes i have no idea what people see in me but some of them said the nicest things to me and i feel better about myself. People comes and go but the memories stays. Those who are actually concern about me, thank you so much and you all will be in my prayers. You guys filled my life and i dont have to mention who are those people. I'll keep it to myself. 

For those who actually look down to me, make fun of me, the reasons for my tears, well, thanks to you guys too! You guys are actually one of the motivation that keeps me going although it is hard. Thank you for 'acting' like a friend when the truth is you have the ugliest heart. I swear i don't wanna be like you. 

For 2012 this is some of my resolutions:

1) Leave a good footprints

2) Give without any expectation

3)Count my blessings

4)Spread the love and not hatred

5) Be the best person i can be

6) Never look back unless it is a good memories

7) Totally be myself and stop pleasing people

8) Say goodbye to my alter ego, Charlotte

9) To live in moderate lifestyle

10) Stronger

11) A good person, daughter, sister, friends

Hopefully 2012 will be a good year for me. Don't forget to smile. Be kind to each  other. At least you will be rewarded in the day after. Never forget that. Spread the love people. This society, the world needs it!

P/s: Revenge is sweet. But it will haunt you back. So just leave it to god.