Friendship is part of my life. Yes, i have a family and a boyfriend but there are times when i need to have friends in my life just to talk, laugh and just be completely silly with each other and even to cry together. I don't know why but lots of my friends came to me when they need an advise or need a should to cry on and pour their problems. I do feel happy that they do remember me. I appreciate the fact that they came to me to share their problems. I really do.
The thing is, it breaks my heart when i realized that they only remember me when they're down. I really appreciate if they just call me because they just wanna talk. Well, that will be much better instead of missing for few months without any call, sms or buzz on yahoo messenger and suddenly their name popped out again crying and need some comfort.
Dont get me wrong. Its not like i dont want to listen to their problem. But lately i realized that not once they ask me if im okay or not. They never ask me how's my life going. Well, i know that i usually dont tell it to them cuz i only tell a few about my problem but it will be nicer if they ask me if im okay or not once in a while instead of expecting me to lend my ears and listen to them crying and swearing.
Yes, i can give them advice. I can wipe their tears. Im not the kind of friends that secretly enjoy other peoples problem. I love all of my friends as they have added colours to my life. I want them to be happy. I really do. But sometimes the fact that they are just so selfish and never care about others, that's what makes me sad.
Im tired to start the conversation when they think they are too good to start the conversation with me first. I mean, come on. We have been friends for years, do you still have that ego? I mean, i understand that they have the pride but its me. Your so called best friends. Why is it so hard for you to buzz me and just say hye to me? What is the worst thing that can happen if you do that? Surprisingly, their ego just vanish whenever they have a problem and they know i am the right person to talk to. That's the only reason that they will start the conversation first with me.
Everyone that i met meant a lot to me. There are times when i feel like i wanna say that i miss them. I wanna post it in their facebook. Each and everyone of them but i kindda feel stupid if i do that since they never think of me to ask if im okay or not.
After all that shits happened in my life, i know that expectation is the key to sadness. Well, i heard that quote before so i know that im right. Believe me, right now i wont expect much from them. They can call me any time they want even its 3 in the morning just for me to hear them babbling about their problems. I dont mind if their boyfriend yelled at me and i will do anything to cover their ass up and take the blame so she wont break up with her boyfriend cuz i know friends do that for each other although they never do that to me. If u wanna cry in front of me, let it be. Im not gonna expect much. I just wanna give the best that i can cause i love them so much to end that friendship just like that.
Read my lips. Friends Forever.
Hugs and kisses.
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